A Year-Full of Blessings

A year ago on this very day, I made a horrible choice.   That choice brought about terrible consequences; however, God graciously scooped me up in his arms and showed me just how merciful he really is.  He showed me the parts and people of my life that I needed to let go of as well as the ones I needed to hold on to. 

Although this past year has been a bumpy one, full of legal woes, it has definitely been one of the most wonderful years of my life as well.  God is helping me discover who he wants me to be.

Thank you God!!

An Update from the Woods in Kentucky

As the world gets crazier and crazier all around me, things are still going good here in the deep woods of Kentucky.  I haven't wrote a posting in quite a while.  Not because I've been ignoring my blog, but simply because I haven't had much to write about.  Still yet, not much to write about, but for those of you that regularly read my postings, I thought I would give you a quick update. 

April 14th: I turned 27.  YAY for me!!! I'm getting closer and closer to 30 and dreading it :-)  But, I did have an awesome birthday.  I didn't even leave the house.  It was the first year I didn't go out, and yes that's a good thing.  Last year for my birthday, I wasn't exactly making good choices.  Staying up all night was on my agenda and boy did I accomplish it.  This year however, Eddie and Lucas and I celebrated my birthday the day before my actual birthday by going shopping and out to eat.  We even took my little sister who happens to be taller than me with us as well as her boyfriend.  We all had a great time. 

So, what's in the future for me?  Only God knows.  Eddie and I are waiting on a house to be fixed up and we are supposed to be moving in during the next few weeks.  Eddie said when we get a home he will go through with his proposal and actually tie the knot with me.  Keeping that in mind, I might be getting married pretty soon if all works out well with house.   So, maybe a lot will be happening in the near future for me.  God has been so good to me!!!

Have a great day!!!&&Thanks for reading my postings!!!

Arguing with God

Sometimes, the kids' (my four year old son and his five year old uncle) arguments get really out of hand.  I mean, come on!!!  Surely I didn't act like them when I was young?  Was I so stubborn to never admit my wrongs?  Always blaming my faults on someone else?  Always trying to get the last word in? 

As I sit here and think about how and why the kids argue all the time, I can't help but think that the way they sound to me is probably about the way I sound to God on a daily basis.  I'm always arguing with him.  Always trying to rationalize that my ways are better than his.  That my sins are someone else's fault.  To him, I'm sure I sound just as awful as the kids do when they start bickering with one another.

I guess no matter how old we get, we could all stand to do a 'lil growing up.  I know I sure can.  I need to quit arguing with God so much.  Deep down, I know that his ways are best. 

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.~~Jeremiah 29:11. 

As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.~~Isaiah 55:9

We would all do better to remind ourselves that God's ways are above what our  minds can comprehend.  Also, the next time the kids start arguing, take a step back, and think about how silly and childish they sound.  Chances are, you and I both sound the same way to God on a daily basis. 

Got Me a Car

In 2010, I sold my car.  At that time, I was not in much need of a car; however, over the past several months, it became quite clear that I would be needing a car.  So, what did I do?  I began to pray (and save money). 

God has been so good to me!!  Last weekend, my pastor hooked me up with a great connection to a car.  For the amount of money I paid, I am absolutely astounded at the car I got.  It is so amazing what God does for me.  He continually blesses me! 

If you are in need of something, my suggestion is to start praying.  With time and continual prayer, your prayer will be answered.  The answer might not come in the exact form that you are hoping for, but He will provide. 

And my God will supply all your needs according to His riches in glory in Christ Jesus.~~Phillipians 4:19

Something that Energizes Me

At one point in my life, the only things that energized me were illegal substances. I know that this little flaw of mine was very sad, but unfortunately, it was true; however, that was a long time ago and this is now. Now, I find energy in the simplest things, especially words.

I do not mean to sound like some extremely religious person so please do not mistake me for that; I assure you I am not, but I do admit that I am very spiritual. So, with that said, the words that I find energy through are the ones wrote in the Holy Bible. I know it may sound odd, but I am here to testify that the words God allowed to be in the bible really do give me energy.

At one point in my life, I did not understand the Bible as I do today.  I wish everyone could get to a point in their life that they could interpret the Bible in a way in which they gain understanding and energy from it like I do, but sadly many do not ever allow their selves to reach this point I am writing about. To those of you who have reached this point, I am sure you will agree with me that it is awesome being able to turn to something as simple as words to gain energy, especially during the time periods in life that one feels absolutely drained.

Forgive Them for Stealing

Went to Walmart today to buy some groceries for a special person~~my grandmother.  Decided to leave my purse in my grandmother's car, and just take my wallet in.  Got back out to the car, put the groceries in the backseat, and decided to leave the cart sitting beside the car because it was snowing and raining (I know, I should have taken it to the cartholder).  Then I hurried myself in the car and drove out of the parking lot.  Almost immediately, I noticed that I had not grabbed my wallet out of the cart.  So, I went back to Walmart.  The cart I used was sitting in the same place, but no wallet.  I go inside to Customer Service desk, give them my name.  They have my wallet~~YAY!!!

As soon as I am handed my wallet, I notice it is awful light.  I had at least ten dollars worth of change in it.  Open my wallet, all the money is gone.

Sigh w/ a couple tears :(

Somebody stole all my money.  I had been saving to buy me a car.  I know I shouldn't have carried that much cash around with me, but somebody most certainly should not have stolen it from me either.  What upsets me the most is that the person took all my change.  The several hundred dollars that he or she stole from me wasn't enough. 

Oh, well.  Lord I know you will provide for me.  You will help me save once again to get a car.  Thank you that I at least was able to get my wallet back that my mother bought me for Christmas.  Lord, forgive the person who stole from me.

One Year Ago Today

I am so amazed at how my life has changed since this very day last year.  Last year at this time, as Jamie Johnson would say in his song High Cost of Living, "three days straight was no big feat, I could get by on no food or sleep."  I was spiraling down a road that led straight to hell.  The choices I made in no way were beneficial to me, and they most certainly were not drawing me near to God. 

But oh my my, look at what God has done!!  He took me just as I was, sent me through some cleansing waters, and low and behold, he never let me drown.  He washed me and washed me until my mind became clean and I could see the light.  He washed me until I could see him.  And now, my eyes don't come off of him.  I look for him in everything I do, and I always find him.  You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart. -Jeremiah 29:13

This is not to say that I do not fall off the balance beam of living a healthy Christian life.  I often find myself making mistakes; however, I do turn to his guidance and forgiveness in all areas of my life.  I am so blessed by how far he has brought me. 

One year.
In one year I have came so far. 

One year ago today was my fiance's birthday.  Happy Birthday Eddie!  I love you more than words can explain so I won't try.  I'm certain that you know my love for you is as unconditional as a human love can be.

One year.
I can't wait to see what the next year holds.  If God has brought me thus far in only one year, I can only imagine how much farther he will bring me in the next year.